December....the month of Memories...!!

Yes, indeed many wouldn't have forgotten how this December
a few years back has taken away loved ones... Has disrupted festive
moods in a split second... I thought that this year i wouldn't have to
end this year regreting or hating myself... But end up, i am feeling remorse
I don't know what i have done to feel this much guilt... But maybe,
i have some where in life i have hurt someone... I know someone is hurt...
But i am also hurt...

Every night, i try to shut my eyes... i see him... crying...!
Maybe i have done something wrong...!!!
Everything seems to go wrong thinking that, if i don't apologise
immediately i might soon.... go crazy of the guilt...

I'm sorry everyone.... I'm sorry... I want to end this year knowing
that i am forgiven... I know some people wouldn't agree that i am
in the wrong... But people... It isn't wrong to seek forgiven right...
Who knows... I might one sleep peacefully...
Knowing that i am forgiven...

~Nisa~