A Retribution to Saddam Hussein

To many he might be a tyrant, a political monster, a definant and a horrandous
politician... But to me... he is another human being who although did bad things
in power... he still kept the city running...!!! How many people can deny the
fact that he did kept the country running despite thousands of people waiting
for him to step down...!!!

Saddam Hussein, was born in April 1937 at Tikrit, Iraq. He immersed himself
in the anti-British and anti-Western atmosphere in his teenage years. At college
in Baghdad, he joined the Baath party. When Saddam was so called connived
in a plot to kill the prime minister, Abdel-Karim Qassem and the so called
"conspiracy" was discovered, and Saddam fled the country. In 1963, with
the Baath party in control in Baghdad, Saddam Hussein returned home and
began jostling for a position of influence. During this period he married his cousin
Sajida. They later had two sons and three daughters.

Within months, the Baath party had been overthrown and he was jailed,
remaining there until the party returned to power in a coup in July 1968.
Saddam Hussein gained a position on the ruling Revolutionary Command
Council. In 1979, he became the next head of state; The new president of
Iraq! He was who held Iraq together - with its Kurds in the north, Sunni
Muslims in the centre and Shi'ia in the south. What the outside world calls
terror, Saddam calls expediency.

During his ruling time... i don't know what he did.. or why he didi anything...!!!
But whatever he did, he did it for a reason... Also, i believe that
"Whatever Happens, Happens for Something Good...!!!"
So People lets not blame him anymore...! People died.. I don't deny it...
At the same time, He is dead also..! So Leave Him Alone...!!!

Now, i Wish to share with you people a video....!!!
Weak heart please don't see it...!!!
This video is not here for you to tell he got what he deserved...!!!
But for you to reflect upon his death...!!!
If a dictator like him can end up like this... what can normal people
like you and me end up like...!!! Think about it...!!!

SADDAM'S EXECUTION - EXCLUSIVE FULL VIDEO

Death can come anytime...!!! Don't wait for death and do nothing...

But do something useful during the time in which you wait for it...!!!

~N!$@~

Don't scold a dead person

cos

first

he will not feel remorseful after being dead

second

it's also a sin to do so!!!

I never knew...!!!

Holidays, so far meant relaxation, time for fun and many more
that has got to do with just sheer entertainment...!!! Never had
i thought that it might be this boring...!!! Although it's just a
three week holiday, i feel so bored already...!!! Now, i have
gone through almost 11 days... I seriously feel very bored...!!!
So "bored" that i might just sleep all day long... but i can't do that
can, I?! Anyways, so everyday i go over the net to just chat...
But even so, i just go over the net and find things like what i have below
for you:









and many more, I'll show you some other time...!!!
Ok, me got to go now...!!! Till then, it's goodbye from...

~N!$@~

History

Is made by

those whom have won.

Therefore you'll never know

the real story...!!!

What a Day..!!!

Well, it has been quite a while since i last blogged..!!!
All thanks to my stupid computer which didn't allowed me to
update my blog..Haiz... and also my couzins were around...
Went out on Friday to Escape Theme Park with my family
and my two couzins... Had a very good time...
Played till i literally dropped dead... kekekz...!!! Was dead tired
when i came back home... Haiz... though i did enjoyed myself...
I felt that something was amiss... Not sure what...!!! Whatever it
was... I was happy that for once my family went out together... YEY!

Then saturday and sunday was rainy cats and dogs...!!
No choice but had to stay indoor and rot...! HUMPH..!!!
Then monday went for swimming... Though it did rain...
We still enjoyed that half a day...!!! Came home for a delicious meal...!!!
Then received an e-mail... and really made me think a lot...
Which i had like stopped for quite sometime... Wakaka..!!!
Anyways... my couzins then went back that afternoon...!!! Boy, did we had
great fun...!!!

Today went school to sing...!! Yup, to sing the ITE song...!!! For the
first time in my life, i have ever heard the most ironical song...!! Wakaka!
Anyways... we didn't had the CD to hear the song to practice....
But neverthe less, we had our own talented people around to help us get
our way through the song...!!! After practicing like for what seemed like a decade
we got it... Though not very good, it was still the best...!!! Wakaka...!!! Anyways,
after that i went for shopping to buy myself a black skirt and black shoes...!!!
Bought this very nice velvet shoe... God, i just love it...!!! YEY!
Ok, I'm getting very tired...!!!

Bye!

~N!$@~

Love

Hate

Wish

Hope

Are all four letter words

that means something

to everyone

Normal Life... Here I Come..!!!

Yes. Indeed, i am slowly getting the hang of how i used to live
before. The normal routine, i do in daily life. DAYDREAMING...!
Wakaka..!!! Yes, i am looking at the brighter side of life. Not because,
i forgot everything. But because, i've got rid of thinking negatively.
Life is so beautiful. Everything seems the way i saw it last with my conscious
mind. Or rather it seems more beautiful.

It has been like ages for me to realise that there is other things to bother
about than our own "lame" lives. Today, after recapping my past, i want
to laugh things out. Not because it was childish, but because i never knew
it was coming. Haiz, whatever, what has happened has happened. Today,
i feel like a burden is off my back. I feel light. Everything seems normal.
All i want now is my mum. I don't know how long she will be with us. But,
how ever long it is, i will make sure i won't let her regret. I am not willing to
hurt anyone else. Not my mum, for that matter...!!! Even if it means that by
hurting her i will survive... i would die to make her happy...!!!

I want to make her proud! I want her to know atleast i made her proud!
I want to be a teacher! I want to finish my diploma then go on to NIE!
I want to go further, but this is my short term aim! I want to go slow, but
i'll never stop! It's a promise, mum!

Dreams can be achieved

Wishes can come true

Hopes can be real

If you make an effort

I am

Are you??

~Nisa~

December....the month of Memories...!!

Yes, indeed many wouldn't have forgotten how this December
a few years back has taken away loved ones... Has disrupted festive
moods in a split second... I thought that this year i wouldn't have to
end this year regreting or hating myself... But end up, i am feeling remorse
I don't know what i have done to feel this much guilt... But maybe,
i have some where in life i have hurt someone... I know someone is hurt...
But i am also hurt...

Every night, i try to shut my eyes... i see him... crying...!
Maybe i have done something wrong...!!!
Everything seems to go wrong thinking that, if i don't apologise
immediately i might soon.... go crazy of the guilt...

I'm sorry everyone.... I'm sorry... I want to end this year knowing
that i am forgiven... I know some people wouldn't agree that i am
in the wrong... But people... It isn't wrong to seek forgiven right...
Who knows... I might one sleep peacefully...
Knowing that i am forgiven...

~Nisa~

When i Thought it Was over...!!!
Why do I still Feel hurt...!!!

I walking, walking to the end of the room
that is filled with darkness... But no matter
how fast i walk, I just can't reach the door...
Why is that so...!!!?
When i just want to forget things, why do i feel
that i'm just fooling myself...!!!?
I gave back everything, but still i can feel the presence
of those days...!!!
I want to get over and done with things, but
why do i find it difficult..??!
Why should i keep thinking about what
has happened and stay in the dark...??!

I want to reach for the sky...!

I want to make myself heard...!

I want to achieve greater heights...!

I want to live my life happily...!

I dream, i dream, and i dream...
But when i wake up, i realise that i have
yet to get out of a terrible nightmare before
reaching for my dreams...!!!

I wil show everyone, that you made a terrible mistake by
hurting me, Physically, Mentally...!!!
I won't hurt you.... but instead i'll show you what it is
like to be treated like a "fucker"...!!

Yantee, you are right girl! I shouldn't feel sorry for anything..!!
But, it is still not wrong to seek forgiveness for something
I could have done without knowing right...?!

I owe everyone an apology..! Even to myself...!!!
If i have hurt someone, without knowing that i have...
Please forgive me... As for those, who think that i should just
Shut up and act like another areshole.... guess what....
You are in for great trouble...!!!
Don't think just because i'm keeping quiet about your stupid
comments... you watch it people... i'm just getting myself ready
to pounce on you for every word uttered against me...!!!

I'M WARNING YOU...!!!
GET A GRIP OF YOURSELF
BEFORE IT IS TOO LATE...!!!

This is for that someone, I'm so sorry...!!!
Really....!!!
Yantee, I know you want me to get over things...
But, i don't think i am willing to let things go...!!
For ana...(vacuum cleaner)... i'm trying...
To live with my past...
Because i believe that, "if you let go of your
past what do you have to look back when you have
reached your destination...!!!".
Whatever it is... Sorry all...!!

~Nisa~

It's all OVER from today onwards!!!

Yes you read it right... it's all over..!! I gave him back whatever he gave me,
or reminded me of him... Not because i wanna show him, "How much i hate him!!!"
but to show him how much i am hurt to see those things time and again!!!
I'm hurt and i'm not in denial!!! But i don't want to be this way forever!!!
Everytime i talk to you... i get hurt... i feel bad for changing you!!!
But after that day... You broke me into pieces...!!!
I'm not angry with you for faking it!!! i'm angry with myself, dissapointed,
That i was so selfish that didn't realised that someone was
faking to please me..!!!
I'm Sorry, Vicky!!! (if you are reading this)
It's not your fault!!
But no matter what you took the effort
and definitely you were the bestest friend!!


I would also like to thank ana,
For being there most of the time!!
and also Yantee!!!
Thanks for being late, Yesterday!!!
Thanks babe...!!!
My sunshine, i also love
u lots for making me smile
Whenever i am not good!!!
Thanks all...!!!
I really love you guys!!!

Fakeness In The Air...!!!

Fakeness in the air...!!! Everything was a fake!!!
Everything was nice when i was falling in the trap...!!!
Then everything seemed like a fantasy when i fell into it completely,
After breaking free... I understand why things happened..!!!
Well, although i was slow at understanding these stuffs...
atleast i did now...!!!

"No fakeness anymore"
Those words are still fresh in my mind...!!!
I have ever heard of the phrase, "Love is blind"
But that day i realised that if you truly love that
someone, you too will become blind!!!
I feel hurt, i still feel the pain... the wound is fresh!!!
To think that i completely believed you!!! I feel stupid..!!!
VERY STUPID...!!! I was so naive!!!
Those times were so true!!!
I knew that those were just to good to be true!!!
I am to be blamed for what happened..!!!
If i knew i would have to see this day, i would have
never listened to my heart!!!
But whatever it is... I never faked..!!!
I never did wanted to..!!!
And i never will....!!!

Well, Now that it's all over!!!

Well, now that it's all over, life still continues...
Every minute is stressful... People told me that ITE
Life is and will be the most easiest life....
But now, after what i went through....
It's not easy anymore.... Just going crazy by the day!


Everyday seems to be just another day to me!!!
Things are pouring into me very slowy...
Life is not the same anymore...
but i'm am wearing a mask just to show those who care
that i'm not BrOk3n afterall.... But the truth is...
I don't even wanna think about it... Life is getting Stressful....
My O's are coming.... again..wakaka...ok... So my first paper is
on the 6th November 2006.... God Bless Me!!!
My new semester is a mess... mostly because
of an unappreciative teacher.. known as Mr. Aaron Tang...
He protrays a image of a boo-chap person...
or rather he isn't bothered how people judge him coz
trust me people he looks like fisherman... perspires a lot....
It's so bad that at times it seems like he bathed with his clothes on....
He really turns me off that he made me walk out from
one of his lesson recently... He speaks lowly of the government and expects me
to sit and hear him out... Well... If he wants to learn things the harder way out...
So be it..! His wish is my command...


Well that's all for today...! Bye..!! Too Stressed out to carry on....!

Maybe We weren't really
meant to be together !!!

It's all over....!!! When i thought it was just the begning...!!!
Everything is over between him and me!!!
It was just yesterday when we thought everything will go smoothly
everything came to an end so suddenly....
I just feel like it's the end of the world....
To think that i was happy when we were together....
i thought that i can atleast be happy outside of this hell....
But "No", even God isn't happy with me being happy...
Tears seem to flow like they always do....
i feel like i being stabbed a thousand times at
my heart..... Life doesn't seems to be the same without him.....
I knew this day would come.... But i didn't know it
would come so early... Everything seems to be black in front of me....
My days are counting...!!! Every where i look i search for
him to turn up from nowhere and tell me that it was all a joke....
All i pray now is for some miracle to happen
where he and i would be back together again....

It's not that easy living!

Yes girl this is what i'm gonna talk about today!
Well, now that the bitch's husand is here,
i'm just a burden to everyone at home!
My stupid father is the most happiest person
now that my computer is shifted to the hall!
Now he can use it till it spoils!
Wait, and see what i'm going to do! I make sure
he regrets touching my computer! Wakaka!
*Nisa's evil grin*
Ok!

Well, now everything seems to be rocky around me!
Very irritated to just keep thinking about problems!
Well, glad that you passed your BTT! Congrats girl...
sorry for not updating my blog for sometime!!!
Well, now that my computer is in the hall,
i can't do much in the com...Haiz,
just waiting for the moment for thoes two to get out!!
I so want them to get out because,
they are more of a burden to us then a pleasure!
Seriously speaking, for the past two days my mum is
sick and that bitch couldn't be bothered to even
ask mum how is she feeling!!!
Like where in the earth has a child been so ignorant about
his or her parents!!!
so much hatered, just hate her as days go by!!!
Well that's all for today girl!!!

Ok Girl, Here's what we did
Yesterday!

Ok, we met at 1.30pm plus as usually
you were "LATE"
But atleast now we got to eat at
Long John Silver...YEY!
Ok, you were slightly more then tensed
yesterday! Just because you were going
for a "trial" TEST ... wakaka!
You were gobbling down the food like nobody's
buisness...hahakz...! Must have seen that on your face
i'm sure you would have laughed yourself!!
Well then we went to SSDC... Then we went to Room 5
and i waited for you to finish and come out... Wahla...
You came out faster than i thought!! Wakaka..!!
Then you came out to tell me you got 46/50
Congrats girl... wish you get better than that in the real one...
;)

Now i am very dissapointed! Well, according to my last
entry i was going to have a room all by my self!
I knew it that it was too good to be true!
When all the arrangements were made... things just
take a "U" turn and i get dissappointed!
Now i will have to shift to my parents room and
my computer will be placed in the living room...
Why should i give in to some idiot who is only
coming to give me hardship...
That's why i thought i will not make his stay with
my family a memorable one...
I make it a living hell for him..."It's a Promise"
ok Girl got to go! bye!

My Life Update!
The Past in Brief!

Ok girl, so just to keep you updated
but what's happening in my life now!

My second brother-in-law is
coming back to Singapore!
Ok for your information till
yesterday i thought his return
to Singapore is rather a nuisense
but now I just can't wait for him to
come to Singapore, because if he did
i can have a whole room to myself!
YEY!
That's i can have my room
all to myself! Wakaka!
Ok! Oh and if you wondering since
when i had a second brother-in-law!
Well, remember my sister getting married
last year june!

Ok, now i want to bring you back and
tell you something about us before we
went our "separate ways!"

Well i wanted to tell you this because i
don't know whether you still remember
those stuffs!

We always used to laugh at people
who tend to pronounce words wrongly
and one such incident is our P.E teacher
Mr. Ang! "Procedure!"
Then whenever you got angry with me you used
to not talk to me then write me a letter saying
my mistakes {actually i still have them with me! =)}
Then "Lumpy", "Baldy", "Shorty", I'm sure you have not forgotten these
two prominent figures! Wakaka!
Of course you must remember Mr.Singh, our Noisy O.M
remember how he used to shout in the corridors "Oi! Boy"
Man! Those were the wonderful times we had!
Ok! girl i have run out of memories!
More next time when i remember more!
Until then try remembering these!
Bye!

Ok, so here comes your opinion and
today's day out where you used me
and intend to further!!

According to you you wanted me to give it a try
(without the "Guru" of course!)
But what i told you was i don't want him to part
from his friends or relatives just for me
because i would get the blame!!!
(Which i don't want to have in a million years!)
Then yesterday night we had a phone conversation

I told you that he wants to go on for the next six months
just to make sure both of us won't say, "What if?!"
in the future. I rather be with him for the next six months
and after which go where 'life' wants to bring me to!
But to you it was a ridiculous choice!
But girl, i want to go through this thing because i think he is worth it!


Now for today's meeting!


We met at 2pm as usualy you were late...
Oops, nono You were Late!
so we didn't get to eat at Long John Silver
because YOU WERE LATE!
So we had lunch at KFC!
and after which you used me to follow you to
SSDC to register for theory test!
All the way, I had fun! Lots of fun!
I love you sweety!
I wish we could meet like this everyday!
Love you lots!
Ok! So that's all for today!
Take care! Love ya Sweety!

Our Conversation On Wednesday Night

Ok yanti, i want you to remember what you spoke to me on
wednesday night! So here it goes our conversation that night!


~N!$@~
i got something to tell you u wait ah...

YaNtEe ::
okez

~N!$@~
ok...

~N!$@~
i was talking to him on tuesday night

YaNtEe ::
okez

~N!$@~
then he asked me about you and your bf...
as in have i seen you lately and how you guys are n things like that...

YaNtEe ::
Uh Huh

~N!$@~
then i told him i met you that afternoon...

~N!$@~
and he asked me what i talked to you...

~N!$@~
then i told him that i told you everything we missed out on...

~N!$@~
and then he asked me to give a detailed report on what i talked to you...

YaNtEe ::
right

YaNtEe ::
how come sia

~N!$@~
what how come...?!

YaNtEe ::
i mean he asks abt the whole detail must report2

~N!$@~
as in he wanted to know what i talked to you about me and him...

YaNtEe ::
ouh okez

~N!$@~
so i told him what i told you...

YaNtEe ::
then then?

~N!$@~
and then he said, " Looks like i have created a bad impression
in front of your fren, ryte..?!"

YaNtEe ::
haiyo

YaNtEe ::
no la...tell him actually the guru is the one

~N!$@~
i told him...

~N!$@~

YaNtEe :: eh but wait ley y the guru never predict tat nisa's friend
will get bad impression of the guru ah?

YaNtEe ::
ahaahakz

~N!$@~
rite....

~N!$@~
wait got some more...

YaNtEe ::
okez

~N!$@~
then he was like feeling really bad about asking me to choose from the options

YaNtEe ::
only now...like so late liddat

~N!$@~
actually he felt that wen he was saying about
this thing on monday night...

~N!$@~
he actually said that he wants to get into NS
just to suffer for so called "Bastarding" me...

YaNtEe ::
aiyo

YaNtEe ::
wat la he

YaNtEe ::
ehh wait

~N!$@~
that's y...

~N!$@~
yes?

YaNtEe ::
ask the guru to predict which unit he'll be in

YaNtEe ::
CD,police or army

~N!$@~
rite...

YaNtEe ::
if tat one correct ah...i respect the guru

YaNtEe ::
really2

YaNtEe ::
bcos its not easy wat

~N!$@~
crazy...

~N!$@~
i talked him out of it...

YaNtEe ::
if he can do tat correctly then ah i trust the guru

~N!$@~
then i told him your opinion about this situation and he was like....
"Are you sure this is what you want..??!"

YaNtEe ::
my opinion is wat again?

YaNtEe ::
i dont remember

Ok so you have yet to know what you opinion was!!
But that's for next time! Until then keep thinking!!

HI THERE!

After such a long time, i just want a blog to post.

So now here i am to post daily happenings especially for a

dear friend of mine, Yanti!

wakaka..! Yes, Yanti this is for you!

Aren't i'm so sweet!

Well, i know i am! wakaka!

Since you find it lazy to write

things down, from today onwards

i'll write it down so you don't have to keep asking me to repeat

the story like hundred times a week!

wee~! wakaka... just kidding!

Well girl, look after yourself,

Anything just ring me ok!

Till then, Bye!