When i Thought it Was over...!!!
Why do I still Feel hurt...!!!

I walking, walking to the end of the room
that is filled with darkness... But no matter
how fast i walk, I just can't reach the door...
Why is that so...!!!?
When i just want to forget things, why do i feel
that i'm just fooling myself...!!!?
I gave back everything, but still i can feel the presence
of those days...!!!
I want to get over and done with things, but
why do i find it difficult..??!
Why should i keep thinking about what
has happened and stay in the dark...??!

I want to reach for the sky...!

I want to make myself heard...!

I want to achieve greater heights...!

I want to live my life happily...!

I dream, i dream, and i dream...
But when i wake up, i realise that i have
yet to get out of a terrible nightmare before
reaching for my dreams...!!!

I wil show everyone, that you made a terrible mistake by
hurting me, Physically, Mentally...!!!
I won't hurt you.... but instead i'll show you what it is
like to be treated like a "fucker"...!!

Yantee, you are right girl! I shouldn't feel sorry for anything..!!
But, it is still not wrong to seek forgiveness for something
I could have done without knowing right...?!

I owe everyone an apology..! Even to myself...!!!
If i have hurt someone, without knowing that i have...
Please forgive me... As for those, who think that i should just
Shut up and act like another areshole.... guess what....
You are in for great trouble...!!!
Don't think just because i'm keeping quiet about your stupid
comments... you watch it people... i'm just getting myself ready
to pounce on you for every word uttered against me...!!!

I'M WARNING YOU...!!!
GET A GRIP OF YOURSELF
BEFORE IT IS TOO LATE...!!!

This is for that someone, I'm so sorry...!!!
Really....!!!
Yantee, I know you want me to get over things...
But, i don't think i am willing to let things go...!!
For ana...(vacuum cleaner)... i'm trying...
To live with my past...
Because i believe that, "if you let go of your
past what do you have to look back when you have
reached your destination...!!!".
Whatever it is... Sorry all...!!

~Nisa~

It's all OVER from today onwards!!!

Yes you read it right... it's all over..!! I gave him back whatever he gave me,
or reminded me of him... Not because i wanna show him, "How much i hate him!!!"
but to show him how much i am hurt to see those things time and again!!!
I'm hurt and i'm not in denial!!! But i don't want to be this way forever!!!
Everytime i talk to you... i get hurt... i feel bad for changing you!!!
But after that day... You broke me into pieces...!!!
I'm not angry with you for faking it!!! i'm angry with myself, dissapointed,
That i was so selfish that didn't realised that someone was
faking to please me..!!!
I'm Sorry, Vicky!!! (if you are reading this)
It's not your fault!!
But no matter what you took the effort
and definitely you were the bestest friend!!


I would also like to thank ana,
For being there most of the time!!
and also Yantee!!!
Thanks for being late, Yesterday!!!
Thanks babe...!!!
My sunshine, i also love
u lots for making me smile
Whenever i am not good!!!
Thanks all...!!!
I really love you guys!!!

Fakeness In The Air...!!!

Fakeness in the air...!!! Everything was a fake!!!
Everything was nice when i was falling in the trap...!!!
Then everything seemed like a fantasy when i fell into it completely,
After breaking free... I understand why things happened..!!!
Well, although i was slow at understanding these stuffs...
atleast i did now...!!!

"No fakeness anymore"
Those words are still fresh in my mind...!!!
I have ever heard of the phrase, "Love is blind"
But that day i realised that if you truly love that
someone, you too will become blind!!!
I feel hurt, i still feel the pain... the wound is fresh!!!
To think that i completely believed you!!! I feel stupid..!!!
VERY STUPID...!!! I was so naive!!!
Those times were so true!!!
I knew that those were just to good to be true!!!
I am to be blamed for what happened..!!!
If i knew i would have to see this day, i would have
never listened to my heart!!!
But whatever it is... I never faked..!!!
I never did wanted to..!!!
And i never will....!!!