Well, hoping everything will go smooth
from now on...!!!

For the past three days, felt really hurt...
Thinking that everything we shared was falling a part....
Knowing that people are more of what they were not used
to be.... To think that it was because of someone's personal
problems.... nevertheless, things were different from Friday
onwards.... i have to give credit this moment, to Belinda...
Seriously she is very cute.... and Thank you... i don't think
this could have been better....

Well, finally i'm back... wakaka.... sorry for the rest who
hae checked out to read something new.... i also changed
my blogskin.... well, for those who don't know what Kaabah
is that is on the opening page, it is a Black stone building
in Saudi Arabia, Where muslims believe that is where
our god, "Allah" is.... not in but above.... I don't know
how true it is though but there are other reasons behind
it.... for the Benefit of those who the Picture below will make
you know how the building looks like... it's the most holiest
place for us...!




A satelite picture of the Makkah, in Saudi Arabia




The Black Stone, covered in Black velvet cloth, or Kaabah



I think the title says it all....

Well, if you are wondering why it is build that way, so that
influencial people, like the President, or Prime Minister of the
you know.... those who thinks it's not up to their standards
to pray amongst the rest.... or whatever it may be....

So that's all.... Worried sick whether i'll be finishing this course
properly.... hmm... things are looking better now.... people are
looking more on the bright side of Life.... hope everything goes
well.... and everyone around me will...!

Got to go now...! Bye! Take care people...!!! Everything happens
for something GOOD...!!!

~N!$@~

Is there something wrong out there??!

Everyone around me have problems.
It's like, ther is something happening
but somehow i'm not abe to understand it.
People are feeling down, for some
this is the most happenig time of the year
but now not anymore.

Things are getting better in my mind...
but nevertheless my surrounding is still
at it's worst state. Everyone is Emo-ing.

Haiz, is all i can say!!!

Ok got to go now...! Bye!!!

~N!$@~

*Don't let today's disappointments
cast a shadow on tomorrow's dreams.

*All men who have achieved great things
have been great dreamers.

I'm Hurt!!! And i don't know why!!!

Something is bothering me!
Is it because of my surrounding
with everyone being emotional and stuff
or is it something else that i can feel
inside of me... Something which i have
been lying about all this while... I don't know!

Life is asking me questions... and i can't
answer any...
Have i really changed.... or am i
just holding a mask to hide the fact
that i am not...!?? I don't know...
Why everyone else finds it easily
to move on... while i want to stick
to the past??! I don't know...
Am i afraid of embracing he fact that
the future is too fast to catch up...
Or wl it be too late before i
realise that the future has got me...

People change...! Environment changes...!
But sometimes things that seems changed,
does not completely mean it is changed...

TIME...!!! Does it really changes??!

I Hate Myself !!!
I Truely Hate Myself !!!

My Holidays!!!

Very Interesting yet tiring...!!!
Firstly, i have been going back to school
almost twice a week for Student Council
matters, sometimes staying home also got to
think about Student Council matters.
Ever since i took up position, i have been thinking
of a lot of things. Saw my results, was very
dissapointing indeed. Nevertheless, next semester
i will make sure, i'll do a better job than any other time.

I just came back from a camp. Blaze Camp!
fun as all the may intake came and bonded
very well...!!! It was a four day three night camp.
We stayed in Loyang Aloha Bangalows 12, 13, 14 and 15.
Had lots a theory lessons, and very little sleep! :(
But nevertheless, very thing else was very fun!
Slept with SIMA, first day, made lots of noise
second day, smacked SIMA in sleep, and third day
i guess she sleeped peacefully...wakaka..!!

So far everything when good...!!! I'll post the photos soon!
Got to go people, catch you guys later..!!!

I Pledge...!!!

The Pledge
We, members of the blah blah blah......

My Investiture... haha... ok

It happened on the 19th of March 2007
I took my position as
Head of Publications & Communications Committee
In Student Council of ITE Clementi campus

It was a happening day... Everyone was waiting to
hear speeches from the outgoing President and Incoming
President... My outgoing President, Shar, really touched
us all with her inspirational speech and her video was
the best gift...

The incomingPresident, Hafiz, of course did not
forgot to to insert his usual jokes in his speech,
but nevertheless his was also very touchy...

It was a tearful goodbye to all the seniors...
I really was very sad that our journey together
was very short indeed but if iven a choice to go
back to the past, i'll never hesitate... hahakz....

In short a very wonderful day...!!!

I'll post some photos soon...!!! Till then,
Bye ppl!!!

~N!$@~

School...!!!

Well, school is filled with Projects, responsibilities,
understanding, fulfillment, and many more...!!!

Knowing the need of fulfilling responsibilities is
weighing greateras the day goes by...

There are many things that needs to be done
immediately...!!!

People are turning away... And people whom i
want them to turn away, are turning back to make
feel worse...!!!

Love is something i tried to avoid all my life until
i don't know what changed my mind, but now i'm
happy to announce that i'm back on track...

Family is the most important factor of everyone's
LIFE...
Being without a friend is nothing compared to being
without a FAMILY...
It's the one thing that keeps us going...
It's the one thing that gives us reasons to feel

• Happy
• Sad
• Devasted
• Disappointed
• Angry
• Irritated

So on and so forth...

Enjoying every moment of LIFE is my policy
I'm not going to bother about people whom are not
worth the trouble... coz i believe that...
If you can't even bother to save a relationship
Then i can't be too...!!!

I tried saving once...
Sad to say, i failed...
Now, i'm not willing to repeat the same mistake

ok, got to go...! Take care people..!!

~N!$@~

Mummy, I miss you...!!!

Ok, i admit... i start to miss my mum already!!!
I can't bear it anymore!!!
Mummy, Please come back soon..!!!

Ok, she coming back on the 27th this month..!!!
Ok, so there's a "YEY!" for that...wakaka!!!
Can't wait to see her...!!!

School is getting more lamer by the day...!!!
Can't be bothered anymore!!!
Because i won't benefit even if i communicate
with them or not...!!! Moreover, I need not prove to
others that they are dumb enough to conclude stuffs...!!!
They won't know what they are losing until they lose it!!!
Their BRAINS...!!! wakaka!!! Brain-less Idiots...!!!

Valentine's Day...!!! Hope it was a wonderful day to all!!!
Hope this LOVE is shared among everyone everyday!!!

Love all
Cherish Love!!!

~N!$@~

A signature always
reveals a Man's
Character - sometimes
His Name!!!

Happy Valentine's Day...!!!

Today is Valentine's Day!!!

I wonderful day to express your love
Be it to your family, relatives, friends or
even your special one!!!

A day in memory of Pastor Valentine...
Who lived and died to make LOVE come true...!!!

To many this day maybe just for sheer sexual pleasure
but to most, it's a day long waited for...!!!

I waited for this day too... But it came just too
slow..!!! Haiz...

Hope that Everyone out there will get the LOVE
they deserve... and May LOVE bring you guys a
long way in LIFE..!!!





Love
Hatered
Friends
Enemy

Happens when you
want them to!!!

What I Day??!


Well, i didn't saw it coming...!!!
Or so to say, i was caught unprepared... hahakz!!
Ok, so here it is, I'm the next
"Publications & Communications executive
committee chairperson" !!!

Yes, believe it or not, I'm going to lead
my juniors!!! Hahakz...!!!

Just, can't believe how my life can get this better!!!

Truly speaking the golden Pig year is really something
special and lucky..!!!

WOW...!!! What a day, man!!!

~N!$@~

A saint person
will not do the
same thing
and expect a
different result

Mummy, Is Gone...!!!

Well, Yippie... my mummy went to India!!!
Ok, i should not be happy, but come to think
about it... Actually i should be happy...!!!
Although to a certain extent i am happy, I
also agree that i kinda miss her...!!! A Lot actually
wakaka...!!!

School, is filled with work and Student Council
committment. Test, Exam, Homework, and etc...
Like what i believe, "Nothing is impossible"
I can do it if i put my heart and soul into it...
Everyday, is like a new day...! Blooming Beautifully
to be appreciated by me...!!! I just can't wait to
see the next...!!!

So far, since school reopened, i have been busy...

1. January Intake Oreintation
2. Fundamentals of E-Business CA1
3. Youths Hands-On Day @ South West
4. Graduation
5. And not forgettting my projects

Yeah, so i have lots more to add in... But due to time constrain...
I got to go now!!! Take care folks!!!

Student Council
Executive Committee
Interview

Today, i had my interview.
Like what the heck. It was very
tiring one. I was begging for someone
to help me get out of there. Everyone
was asking questions like there will
be no tomorrow. As if, i will run away
with all the questions they ask and
never will come back to get any post
in the executive committee

They asked me questions like,
"Which comm do you like to be in
and why?"

"If you were to be given a choice to
choose between the first three posts,
President, V.President and treasurer,
Which one would you choose and why?"

"When you say, you are disciplined,
give me one incident which shows
that you are disciplined!"

"If i were to give you a blank piece of
paper and ask you to draft three activities
for 6 months, would would they be, and which
areas are you targeting at?"

"Can you handle stress and give me an example
in which you handled extreme stress?"

"Do you think handling stress is cruel?"

And so on and so forth...

Although i choose not to answer any of
these questions i just wish to answer the last
one....
"I don't think that it is cruel to withstand stress
because i have a group of wonderful friends and
family. And as long as i have them, i am not
going through but, intense pleasure!"

Take it from me guys...You are the best people in
my life..!!!

ok, people got to go now!
See ya... Bye!

Happy Birthday to me...!!!

Yes, it's my birthday on the 11th Jan... what a day i had...!!!
Really one of the best birthdays i ever had...!!! My classmates
were the best people on earth man...!!! Thanks Ana for that
sweet flower of yours that is so sweet of you... and Khai...
that card though simple... means a lot... though i know you
didn't write the top portion of it... wakaka..!!! Anyways... school
was great... first time i felt cherished....

Then home was the sweetest place ever to begin with...!!!
Truly speaking, i was like floating in heaven... i don't even think
Heaven would have been this sweeter.... Thank God for making
my day the most memorable day...!!! My cake was from Swensens'
got ipod shuffle (1GB), and a pair of earring.... oh not forgetting
flower and a birthday card...!!!

Had dinner from PizzaHut...!!! Some photos for your viewing...


Me and my nieces after cutting my cake



My cake...



My family...

Ok, folks... that's all for now... For more photos.. look at my friendster...!!!
Take care...!!! Love you all...!!!

Giving

and

Taking

is all

part of

LOVE

A Retribution to Saddam Hussein

To many he might be a tyrant, a political monster, a definant and a horrandous
politician... But to me... he is another human being who although did bad things
in power... he still kept the city running...!!! How many people can deny the
fact that he did kept the country running despite thousands of people waiting
for him to step down...!!!

Saddam Hussein, was born in April 1937 at Tikrit, Iraq. He immersed himself
in the anti-British and anti-Western atmosphere in his teenage years. At college
in Baghdad, he joined the Baath party. When Saddam was so called connived
in a plot to kill the prime minister, Abdel-Karim Qassem and the so called
"conspiracy" was discovered, and Saddam fled the country. In 1963, with
the Baath party in control in Baghdad, Saddam Hussein returned home and
began jostling for a position of influence. During this period he married his cousin
Sajida. They later had two sons and three daughters.

Within months, the Baath party had been overthrown and he was jailed,
remaining there until the party returned to power in a coup in July 1968.
Saddam Hussein gained a position on the ruling Revolutionary Command
Council. In 1979, he became the next head of state; The new president of
Iraq! He was who held Iraq together - with its Kurds in the north, Sunni
Muslims in the centre and Shi'ia in the south. What the outside world calls
terror, Saddam calls expediency.

During his ruling time... i don't know what he did.. or why he didi anything...!!!
But whatever he did, he did it for a reason... Also, i believe that
"Whatever Happens, Happens for Something Good...!!!"
So People lets not blame him anymore...! People died.. I don't deny it...
At the same time, He is dead also..! So Leave Him Alone...!!!

Now, i Wish to share with you people a video....!!!
Weak heart please don't see it...!!!
This video is not here for you to tell he got what he deserved...!!!
But for you to reflect upon his death...!!!
If a dictator like him can end up like this... what can normal people
like you and me end up like...!!! Think about it...!!!

SADDAM'S EXECUTION - EXCLUSIVE FULL VIDEO

Death can come anytime...!!! Don't wait for death and do nothing...

But do something useful during the time in which you wait for it...!!!

~N!$@~

Don't scold a dead person

cos

first

he will not feel remorseful after being dead

second

it's also a sin to do so!!!

I never knew...!!!

Holidays, so far meant relaxation, time for fun and many more
that has got to do with just sheer entertainment...!!! Never had
i thought that it might be this boring...!!! Although it's just a
three week holiday, i feel so bored already...!!! Now, i have
gone through almost 11 days... I seriously feel very bored...!!!
So "bored" that i might just sleep all day long... but i can't do that
can, I?! Anyways, so everyday i go over the net to just chat...
But even so, i just go over the net and find things like what i have below
for you:









and many more, I'll show you some other time...!!!
Ok, me got to go now...!!! Till then, it's goodbye from...

~N!$@~

History

Is made by

those whom have won.

Therefore you'll never know

the real story...!!!

What a Day..!!!

Well, it has been quite a while since i last blogged..!!!
All thanks to my stupid computer which didn't allowed me to
update my blog..Haiz... and also my couzins were around...
Went out on Friday to Escape Theme Park with my family
and my two couzins... Had a very good time...
Played till i literally dropped dead... kekekz...!!! Was dead tired
when i came back home... Haiz... though i did enjoyed myself...
I felt that something was amiss... Not sure what...!!! Whatever it
was... I was happy that for once my family went out together... YEY!

Then saturday and sunday was rainy cats and dogs...!!
No choice but had to stay indoor and rot...! HUMPH..!!!
Then monday went for swimming... Though it did rain...
We still enjoyed that half a day...!!! Came home for a delicious meal...!!!
Then received an e-mail... and really made me think a lot...
Which i had like stopped for quite sometime... Wakaka..!!!
Anyways... my couzins then went back that afternoon...!!! Boy, did we had
great fun...!!!

Today went school to sing...!! Yup, to sing the ITE song...!!! For the
first time in my life, i have ever heard the most ironical song...!! Wakaka!
Anyways... we didn't had the CD to hear the song to practice....
But neverthe less, we had our own talented people around to help us get
our way through the song...!!! After practicing like for what seemed like a decade
we got it... Though not very good, it was still the best...!!! Wakaka...!!! Anyways,
after that i went for shopping to buy myself a black skirt and black shoes...!!!
Bought this very nice velvet shoe... God, i just love it...!!! YEY!
Ok, I'm getting very tired...!!!

Bye!

~N!$@~

Love

Hate

Wish

Hope

Are all four letter words

that means something

to everyone

Normal Life... Here I Come..!!!

Yes. Indeed, i am slowly getting the hang of how i used to live
before. The normal routine, i do in daily life. DAYDREAMING...!
Wakaka..!!! Yes, i am looking at the brighter side of life. Not because,
i forgot everything. But because, i've got rid of thinking negatively.
Life is so beautiful. Everything seems the way i saw it last with my conscious
mind. Or rather it seems more beautiful.

It has been like ages for me to realise that there is other things to bother
about than our own "lame" lives. Today, after recapping my past, i want
to laugh things out. Not because it was childish, but because i never knew
it was coming. Haiz, whatever, what has happened has happened. Today,
i feel like a burden is off my back. I feel light. Everything seems normal.
All i want now is my mum. I don't know how long she will be with us. But,
how ever long it is, i will make sure i won't let her regret. I am not willing to
hurt anyone else. Not my mum, for that matter...!!! Even if it means that by
hurting her i will survive... i would die to make her happy...!!!

I want to make her proud! I want her to know atleast i made her proud!
I want to be a teacher! I want to finish my diploma then go on to NIE!
I want to go further, but this is my short term aim! I want to go slow, but
i'll never stop! It's a promise, mum!

Dreams can be achieved

Wishes can come true

Hopes can be real

If you make an effort

I am

Are you??

~Nisa~

December....the month of Memories...!!

Yes, indeed many wouldn't have forgotten how this December
a few years back has taken away loved ones... Has disrupted festive
moods in a split second... I thought that this year i wouldn't have to
end this year regreting or hating myself... But end up, i am feeling remorse
I don't know what i have done to feel this much guilt... But maybe,
i have some where in life i have hurt someone... I know someone is hurt...
But i am also hurt...

Every night, i try to shut my eyes... i see him... crying...!
Maybe i have done something wrong...!!!
Everything seems to go wrong thinking that, if i don't apologise
immediately i might soon.... go crazy of the guilt...

I'm sorry everyone.... I'm sorry... I want to end this year knowing
that i am forgiven... I know some people wouldn't agree that i am
in the wrong... But people... It isn't wrong to seek forgiven right...
Who knows... I might one sleep peacefully...
Knowing that i am forgiven...

~Nisa~

When i Thought it Was over...!!!
Why do I still Feel hurt...!!!

I walking, walking to the end of the room
that is filled with darkness... But no matter
how fast i walk, I just can't reach the door...
Why is that so...!!!?
When i just want to forget things, why do i feel
that i'm just fooling myself...!!!?
I gave back everything, but still i can feel the presence
of those days...!!!
I want to get over and done with things, but
why do i find it difficult..??!
Why should i keep thinking about what
has happened and stay in the dark...??!

I want to reach for the sky...!

I want to make myself heard...!

I want to achieve greater heights...!

I want to live my life happily...!

I dream, i dream, and i dream...
But when i wake up, i realise that i have
yet to get out of a terrible nightmare before
reaching for my dreams...!!!

I wil show everyone, that you made a terrible mistake by
hurting me, Physically, Mentally...!!!
I won't hurt you.... but instead i'll show you what it is
like to be treated like a "fucker"...!!

Yantee, you are right girl! I shouldn't feel sorry for anything..!!
But, it is still not wrong to seek forgiveness for something
I could have done without knowing right...?!

I owe everyone an apology..! Even to myself...!!!
If i have hurt someone, without knowing that i have...
Please forgive me... As for those, who think that i should just
Shut up and act like another areshole.... guess what....
You are in for great trouble...!!!
Don't think just because i'm keeping quiet about your stupid
comments... you watch it people... i'm just getting myself ready
to pounce on you for every word uttered against me...!!!

I'M WARNING YOU...!!!
GET A GRIP OF YOURSELF
BEFORE IT IS TOO LATE...!!!

This is for that someone, I'm so sorry...!!!
Really....!!!
Yantee, I know you want me to get over things...
But, i don't think i am willing to let things go...!!
For ana...(vacuum cleaner)... i'm trying...
To live with my past...
Because i believe that, "if you let go of your
past what do you have to look back when you have
reached your destination...!!!".
Whatever it is... Sorry all...!!

~Nisa~

It's all OVER from today onwards!!!

Yes you read it right... it's all over..!! I gave him back whatever he gave me,
or reminded me of him... Not because i wanna show him, "How much i hate him!!!"
but to show him how much i am hurt to see those things time and again!!!
I'm hurt and i'm not in denial!!! But i don't want to be this way forever!!!
Everytime i talk to you... i get hurt... i feel bad for changing you!!!
But after that day... You broke me into pieces...!!!
I'm not angry with you for faking it!!! i'm angry with myself, dissapointed,
That i was so selfish that didn't realised that someone was
faking to please me..!!!
I'm Sorry, Vicky!!! (if you are reading this)
It's not your fault!!
But no matter what you took the effort
and definitely you were the bestest friend!!


I would also like to thank ana,
For being there most of the time!!
and also Yantee!!!
Thanks for being late, Yesterday!!!
Thanks babe...!!!
My sunshine, i also love
u lots for making me smile
Whenever i am not good!!!
Thanks all...!!!
I really love you guys!!!

Fakeness In The Air...!!!

Fakeness in the air...!!! Everything was a fake!!!
Everything was nice when i was falling in the trap...!!!
Then everything seemed like a fantasy when i fell into it completely,
After breaking free... I understand why things happened..!!!
Well, although i was slow at understanding these stuffs...
atleast i did now...!!!

"No fakeness anymore"
Those words are still fresh in my mind...!!!
I have ever heard of the phrase, "Love is blind"
But that day i realised that if you truly love that
someone, you too will become blind!!!
I feel hurt, i still feel the pain... the wound is fresh!!!
To think that i completely believed you!!! I feel stupid..!!!
VERY STUPID...!!! I was so naive!!!
Those times were so true!!!
I knew that those were just to good to be true!!!
I am to be blamed for what happened..!!!
If i knew i would have to see this day, i would have
never listened to my heart!!!
But whatever it is... I never faked..!!!
I never did wanted to..!!!
And i never will....!!!